Betrayal is equal to backstabbed

WHAT THE HECK AM I TALKING ABOUT EKK??...AM I RIGHT TO FEEL BETRAYED??...AM I DESERVED TO BE BETRAYED...FUCK I AM...AND I DON'T GIVE A FUCKIN SHIT BOUT IT...AFTER ALL THE SACRIFICES..AM I DESERVED THIS???...what have i done wrong kan???...takperlaa...all this shit happens...maybe its just a test from HIM...to make me more stronger..maybe this is his/her day..who knows tomorrow kan...saper tahu...i am mine..i am what i am...tapiii buat masa skang nehhh aku tgh pissed off giler....cilaka sungguh..tengah2 malam nie pulakk jadik camnie...lahanattt btol laaaaa....aku nk tido dah nehh...